I read what I have written, and I find my heart filled with dread. What am I thinking? How can I even consider these thoughts?
I am a doctor, not an assassin or a politician. I am sworn to the protection and the preservation of life and dignity, not its destruction. I am not a citizen here. I an not a diplomat, not an advisor, nor even recognized by the government as a lawful visitor. What right do I have to judge this queen, this government, or this world, much less determine the right path for them?
On the contrary, I am directed not to get involved, not to change the course of the planets natural development. Were I not facing the possibility that I will spend the rest of my days here, I would not be inclined to involve myself with the internal affairs of this world. And yet... this is Eli's world. Her people are the ones suffering and being herded to extinction. And if I stay here, if we are to have any sort of life together, this will be my world, too.
I need the opportunity to talk to the queen. Only then can I be sure whether she's rational. If it should be that she's mentally ill or controled by another, I imagine that obligates me to help... if not as a loyal subject, then as a doctor and out of compassionate. If it should turn out that she knows what she's doing and has decided to do it anyway, then I'm likewise obligated to help....
Ethically speaking, I just don't know what to do about it.